Thursday, January 24, 2008

As people, it is inevitable that we experience emotions. That is how the world is supposed to work. However, most of the time, we try to hide these emotions because we feel that they are not what we want others to see. We will always want to project a part of ourselves that would seem most pleasing. That is the moment when we start guarding ourselves and create the secret persona that we do not intend to have but have anyway.

Then you see that there are people worthy of seeing you for who you really are. People who you can show your true self to because you want them to be part of your life. The only problem with this is that there is emotional involvement. I think I can deal with that now. I'm willing to trudge through that path and hopefully I reach my destination.

So yeah, watch me be reflective. TAE

Monday, January 21, 2008

wrong decisions

after all this time, you realize you made the wrong decision.
that you weren't unhappy in it
there was just something happier at THAT MOMENT
but once that moment passes,
you realize you should have stayed being in that "unhappy" state
because in it, you were happy after all.

crap.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

gametime

I talked with my friend the other day. I was telling him that I was getting more emotional recently and I didn't like it. Somehow, I knew I had to go back to being cold and heartless. My friend said it's stupid because you end up losing friends and the chance to have REAL friends.

Maybe he's right. But, I don't want to admit it because I want to be perfect and not feel abandoned. I'm not sure if the events yesterday would qualify me as a real friend. I think it did because it was really nothing. Hell, I had to lose my phone in the process. If ever there will be conflict, I guess I just have to start facing it and stop avoiding people. Gametime!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

the week that was

Tuesday:
Drank with Pam in Drew's then Iggy joined us for dinner. LECHON PIZZA. Oh yeah, this was that day I had the courage to do something (but actually iggy texted it for me so it's his fault).

Wednesday:
Did the Puzzles. Jack's Loft with the Ratpack. Talked about whatever we can talk about. I think that's the life I want... just bumming and talking about anything with friends. Batch picture. Rory's. Had a beer. Study for Philo Orals... TAE!

Thursday:
Did Puzzles. Studied for Philo Orals. Weh! Anix and I were not able to make an outline for all the thesis statements so we depended on HOPE. Hope that we get to choose our own thesis statement. AND WE DID! BOOYEH! (celebratory dance!) Oh yeah we went to Drew's again. Pam. Mica. Me. Steven. Mica got drunk and PUKED! BWAHAHAHA!

Friday:
Had reporting for Physio about brain death. Did puzzles again. We reached puzzle 11. Iggy, I think we have VERY HIGH IQ's! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Then went to wall-climb with the other guy-girls of bio (stevo and piggy). It ain't a guy thing. It ain't a girl thing. It's a guy-girl thing. Additional 5 shots for all of us because of that stupid wall. BUT GUESS WHO AIN'T DRINKING GREEN DRAGONS (which stevo describes as nakakalasing, nakakasuka, and does not taste good). I was able to climb the wall on my second try so they get to drink that drink. :D

Then went to Drew's with Mica, Svet, Pam, Anix, Iggy, Steve, Berts, and Joey. I say, let's do it again. Went to Iggy's condo where we had good clean fun. Nyar! Dancing is strictly business, it ain't personal. Pretended I was mad at Iggy 'coz of spiciness. The jokes on you tae! Hehe!:p

Summary for the Week:
1. Puzzles
2. Drews
3. Dancing
4. Wall-climbing
5. Guy-girls
6. Ratpack
7. Friends
8. Fun
9. Freedom
10. Bragging