argh...

I just realized that I accidentally erased all the birthday messages in my phone. Tae Tae Tae. I hate this. I kinda saved those messages since it's a new phone and a new set of birthday messages. Now, I have to wait another year. Tae.

I realized that I have the coolest friends. I wasn't able to write about this but a few weeks ago, we had lunch and they gave me a cake saying 'Pangit ka! Eto cake. - Kleek' They're just so nice! Hahaha. It's kleek tradition e. Yey!

And yeah, I really will go to ateneo on a regular basis next year just to meet with them!

some reminders from myself

I think I need to constantly assess myself and see how much I've changed from the last time I've assessed myself. My friend said I've changed since I'm not as makwento as I used to be. But now that I think about it, it's useless to tell stories since my current stories won't be relatable for my friend.

So what is my conclusion, it's not about the person changing. It's more about the environment and your group of friends being different. So we adapt to the changes. We become different for the people we have "left behind." But intrinsically, we are the same. As Shrek said in his third movie, even if people think you are something, it is still you who determines what you are. In other words, if people think you're an ogre because of your appearance, you don't necessarily have to be an ogre inside you. The connection is kinda malabo but i'm telling you there's a connection.:P

thanks to...

Ima thank the people who remembered by birthday. Galeng. I tried to remove it in multiply so no one will know unless they really know it. Anyway, ang labo nun. I'll thank you guys in order.

1. Bym - Dawg, una ka... cge thanks for telling me 'happy new year' and that i'm still dark after one year. Haha. Galeng. Kleek lunch/dinner soon.
2. An-an - Haha, thanks thanks! I just really wish okay si father david... live life mode tayo for the year. YEHEY!
3. Paje - Hahaha. That's a surprise ha. Thanks paje!
4. Tin-tin - Thanks for calling me an asshole because you're a bitch anyway. Nyahaha. Thanks.:p
5. Jordan - Thanks... kwento mo na si ano soon. Nyahahaha.
6. Oli - Hoy thanks sa happy new year greeting ha. Talagang ganun ung greeting ng kleek e. Lunch/dinner next week you carebear.
7. Ann
8. Annabelle
9. Liza
10. Annie
11. Svet
12. Mooch
13. Mandy
14. Anika
15. Shar
16. Nikko
17. Robin
18. Jenelle
19. Carla
20. Mel
21. Paul
22. Enzo
23. Toff

recent frustrations

Damnit... I'm having a hard time in rehearsals since I can't seem to lock-on to my character. Hell, I don't even know what my character is supposed to be like. All I know is that he's from jail. Wow, so that's supposed to narrow it down to what? Almost everyone. I mean, if you came from jail you can be anything... good, bad, whatever. Jail doesn't change a person into any stereotypical jail man. Tae kasi e. I don't know what to do with the monologue. I hate this... I'm really frustrated.

Damnit... I can't seem to perfect my songs in the play. Fuck it. Everyone seems to have locked-on to their characters and songs, while I am stuck in a state without any improvement (thanks no lack of youtube videos for MY character). This play is not as enjoying as I thought it would be. Can I just reach those notes please?! please?! i'm kinda desperate here.

Damnit... I lost a bet in less than 24 hours. I was supposed to be nice for a week... but thanks to my non-stop mouth, I lost. And it would have been okay if I lasted for more than 2 days. But nooooo... I lasted for 23 hours-ish. Boo me.

Damnit... I don't like know-it-alls. Can they just shut their trap up and stop thinking that they know everything about someone. No one is an open book... we all have our secrets and we will never share them to other people because that is not the book we want them to read.

Damnit... I need to cut some ties... I think I have to start sifting through the good friends and the fair-weather friends. Don't worry, this has no connection to any events happening to me. This is just a realization and I want to do it.