after rehersal events

Today, I got home at 7. Yes, 7 in the morning. Why? Because we went out after rehearsals. The after rehearsals dinner and drinking was fun because I finally got to bond with my castmates outside of rehearsals. You realize that these people do the same things that you do (which makes it more fun) and it's funny you only meet them later in life. And you know that moment when you tell yourself that you wanna hang out more with these people because you guys seem to click. Well, I think it happened again to me. The most fun part is when, after all the drinking and dancing, we just stayed at one of our friends' house and chilled there. We were just playing board games/singing to different songs and waiting for the sun to shine. Haha. It was really cool that we were just at the third floor of the house with nobody in the house except us. I'm sure there would be more nights like that. It really had a fun time.

But for this entry, I just want to point out the realization of constantly finding new friends and how nothing is permanent. Fine, you get to keep some of them but you never get to keep all of them. But would it still be the same if it is not complete? Maybe it is. I want to believe it is. I do not want to write such realizations because I don't want the idea of impermanence to be permanent.

conversations

Recently, I haven't had any decent conversations with people. I do have little bits of chit-chat with people but that is it. Nothing deeper than the trivial stuff you usually hear from people on a normal 'let's talk for fun' day. It's as if each day of my life is wasted in a routinary life where I have to talk to people in a getting-to-know-you stage. I do not know if you would get me but that is what I am feeling right now. It's like I'm this person who has so many things to say but I do not have anyone to say it too. I blame circumstance for that. The people I usually talk to about these things have been super busy or have moved out of the country (which means less conversation time).

I guess it is the cycle of relationships. You meet people and have pseudo-deep relationships with them until it is time to move on again. Then you have to meet new people again. It is tiring and tedious.

I need conversation so I wouldn't have to talk inside my mind.

First musical play

In one month, I'm going to debut in my first real play ever. Fine, I did class plays and the like but this play is different. No grades or teachers. Just pure performance for the sake of performing. I would have not imagined myself being part of any play because I was never really into performing in front of people. And calling me a thespian would be comparable to calling roger federer a sucky tennis player.

Anyway, I'm excited about the play and I'm glad I did it. I love the play, I love the people I'm working with (very important), and I love what I'm doing. For the first time in my college life, I'm doing something. I didn't quit! Booya! Hope to see you guys there. This play is really nice. :)

I'll tell you the details next time. :)